Goodbye Mom

My Mom passed away on Saturday, October 20, 2012, and since then, this blog has been on hiatus.  I knew my next post had to be about my Mom, and I just couldn't wrap my head around putting all my emotions down on paper.  What do I want you to know about my Mom?  She is without a doubt the kindest, most selfless and sincere person that I have ever met.  She loved her family more than anything.  She had 8 kids and taught each of us the value of hard work and discipline and to believe in ourselves.  She shaped all of us kids into adults, and she did a fine job.

I miss her so much. Some days are better than others, and some are unbearable. Eric's doing so much fun stuff and learning so many new things each day, and I want to tell her about every bit. He'll do something silly, and I'll think..."Oh man, I have to call Mom!"  For weeks, I would actually pickup the phone before I realized that I couldn't call her.  Now, I've gotten to the point that I tell her, just not via land line! This holiday season and Christmas has been bitter sweet.  It was so hard to send Christmas cards without sending one to her, too.

I guess what I've come to realize is that dealing with the grief with losing my Mom will be a life-long process.  I can't imagine that I will ever miss her any less, but I guess it will just get easier with time.  In the meantime, I have a fantastic hubby and wonderful family and friends to help me out. Another huge help is this little, adorable 20-month-old boy running around this house that is full of energy, spirit, and happiness and that I just can't stop kissing (which by the way, is probably why I'm on my 3rd cold of the season)!

Here's to you Mom; I love you.